well today i'm pissed. adrian let roxy go yesterday afternoon and now she's fucking gone! supposably he tried to find her but when i got home he pulled up ate and watched tv for the rest of the day with her still gone! i went to look for her and it was i guess already an hour and a half after she left. victor says that if she's not here by this weekend that adrian is leaving! this is bull shit! and then his stupid fucking dog is here, and i'm not joking this dog has not even one ounce of smartness in him! he is stupid, and he has to go in the bathroom at night because he pisses on everything, and all night all he does is bark! it's really fucking annoying! i hate that dog! he's fucking lucky he has that chip in him with the gps cause i would just let him go! but there would be no use because they'd find him right away! so for the last day i've been looking for Roxy, and she is no where to be found! I hope that someone has her and calls her in! i called and reported her missing, and they took her information, but just hopefully if someone has her they won't keep her! i got no sleep last night cause i thought i heard her barking and scratching the door, but when i would go look there was nothing there! i hate adrian and his stupid fucking dog! i want roxy back! i'm 34 weeks pregnant right now! it's getting so fricking close! my baby shower is this sunday! hopefully someone brings my Roxy back though so nataly can have her doggie. and me too! Amanda
well today victor and I went to the fair!! we just got back! we were only there for an hour, and then left, but it was a lot of fun!! tuesday i'll be 7 months pregnant!! i'm getting very excited!! i cannot wait! yesterday my mom and i filled out the invitations to my babyshower!! i really cannot wait till that comes cause then i can set everything up, and start washing all the baby's clothes and put them all away where they are gonna be going!! and adrian will be OUT finally!! after three years that i've been here and even before me he was here so that's gonna be a relief!! a BIG one at that!! we've been trying to hint to him for like the last two years that it's time for him to go, but he hasn't gotten the picture so far!! but now he really does need to go because nataly will be here soon!!! i cannot wait!!! amanda
well here it is already july! three more months to go then i'll be a brand new mommy to a little girl! i don't know if i already said this but her name will be nataly nicole! i'm way too excited! aryona is doing good kinda! she won't take a formula! lacy has switched 5 times already! poor baby! she's sooo beautiful! kelly's wedding is this weekend! i already got my dress! now i have to get my shoes hair make-up and nails done and i'll be set! gosh i can't wait till this is over! my dress alone was $200.00! that sucked! it's a size 8. (fat ass) lol in order for me to ever wear it again i'll have to be either 6 months pregnant or get it altered! that kinda sucks! but ohh well! well i haven't wrote in a while so i thought i'd catch yall up! lol amanda
well today i have doctors at 1pm!! i can't wait! i actually like going to the doctors now! idk why, maybe because i have a cute little surprise inside of me that i feel like i'm dying to get out!!
well victor went camping this weekend with all of his friends. he got hurt and almost drowned there! cause his dumbass decided to go down the river with no life jacket and got his foot caught between some rocks and it locked in there and threw him around awhile till it spit him out then he almost drowned cause he could barely move! some of his friends were there and gave him the oar from the boat to help him out! well i'm happy he's alright though but he's a dumbass! but w/e
amy (my high school friend) she had her baby yesterday! i think the baby is big cause i've only seen little babies! they say she's small! idk! her baby was 7lbs & 3oz. and lacy's baby was 6lbs & 12oz. i thought that was small!!! idk maybe more people should have babies so i could compare!!??
i babysit for victor's three boys then two other little girls! i don't like the girls for shit! they are dakota 6 and mary 4. i can honestly say that i really DO NOT like mary!! she really annoys me! and such a little brat! she is enough to make anyone hate kids! she is mean and obnoxious, and i can't stand her at all!!! i know it sound mean and like i'm a bitch but really i can't help it i hate that little girl! and i barely even know them and they always try to kiss and hug me! i don't even want to hug them let alone kiss them! i can't wait till i have my kid, cause then i'm not going to be watching anyone's kids anymore! at least my kid will not be like that because i'll be the one to raise her!! i'm not saying my child won't be bad but at least not like these kids! -----well anyways------ i found out i will be having a girl! we are going to name her nataly nicole!! i cannot wait!! i have a little less than four months left to go!!
i finally realized that i have a drinking problem! yah i'm an alcoholic! it's pretty bad when i can't even stop while i'm pregnant! i already love my daughter soo much and like victor said it can't be as much as i think if i can't stop drinking even for her! which he's right! it's not like i drink a lot but everytime i feel like shit or if i get mad the first thing i think about is going to drink! that's NOT good! so i'm grounding myself to my house at least until after i have my baby! and then it'll be really hard to leave because we aren't going to have anyone watch her while we go out unless it's one of us! i don't want our life to turn out like my cousin's or my aunt's and thier kids! they barely ever see thier kids because someone else is always watching them while they are out drinking!! i don't want it to be like that with us! it's probably the main reason why thier kids don't listen to them or anyone else! and i'm not going to do that to my daughter!!
lacy had her baby! lacy is my sister! her name is aryona marie! she was born may 29, 2006! she was a small baby! 6lbs and 12ounces! cute as a button though! she was here on sunday! lacy actually let me take her for the day! lacy's going to be a great mommy! she already is! i can tell!
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adrian let roxy go yesterday afternoon and now she's fucking gone! supposably he tried to find her but when i got home he pulled up ate and watched tv for the rest of the day with her still gone! i went to look for her and it was i guess already an hour and a half after she left. victor says that if she's not here by this weekend that adrian is leaving! this is bull shit! and then his stupid fucking dog is here, and i'm not joking this dog has not even one ounce of smartness in him! he is stupid, and he has to go in the bathroom at night because he pisses on everything, and all night all he does is bark! it's really fucking annoying! i hate that dog! he's fucking lucky he has that chip in him with the gps cause i would just let him go! but there would be no use because they'd find him right away! 
my baby shower is this sunday! hopefully someone brings my Roxy back though so nataly can have her doggie. and me too!
i cannot wait!!!
she is mean and obnoxious, and i can't stand her at all!!! i know it sound mean and like i'm a bitch but really i can't help it i hate that little girl! and i barely even know them and they always try to kiss and hug me! i don't even want to hug them let alone kiss them! i can't wait till i have my kid, cause then i'm not going to be watching anyone's kids anymore! at least my kid will not be like that because i'll be the one to raise her!! i'm not saying my child won't be bad but at least not like these kids! 
