yah well today is friday!! i'm having a GIRL!!!!! it's soo exciting! i've been shopping ever since tuesday! i love baby clothes especially girl's clothes!!! now i'm waitng for a little bit to go shopping again! well at like 4:30pm!!! i can't wait till then!! i can't wait till the baby comes!! i'm very excited!! victor is really happy now! he wants her to come so he can call her daddy's little princess and so she can call him daddy for the rest of her life!!! gosh i can't wait to see her to see what she looks like and to hear how she sounds! it's going to be really great!!

wow i haven't wrote in a long time!!! wow a lot has changed!! well today i have doctor's! we'll get to that in a minute! i'm 21 now and still with victor!!!!
i'm also 4 & 1/2 months pregnant!!! today i get to find out if i'll be having a boy or a GIRL!! i cannot wait! this has been an emotional rollercoaster for me! one day i'm happy and the next i'm sad cause i'm fat! but you know if you have read my past blogs you'll be able to tell that i'm much happier than before!! it's weird how a baby can really change everything, and even before he/she is here. everytime i do somthing i think well how is this effecting my baby, where before i wouldn't care what it did to me!! well i'm not like that depressed anymore! i'm actually happy, and who knew that it would take having a child to be this way??!! idk but i'm happy! wuu hoo

yeah well i know what is wrong with me now a days!! i'm depressed! with bi-polar???? wtf! i hate it and it's making me pissed off! one minute i'll be happy as fuck and the next i'll want to freakin die cause i can't stop crying, or being pissed! i hate it!!!!
but idk today i'm having a bad day! yesterday was good! i was happy! now today i feel like shit!
victor made me sleep on the couch last night cause he was mad at me! he locked me outta the bedroom! how frickin' childish!? but w/e jeni stayed the night so at least i wasn't sleeping out here alone!
now i have to watch the boys all week! victor and austin are fine, but just ethan drives me frickin' CRAZY!!

that's probably why i'm not doing good today! cause he's being bad already! well right now he's at school! but when he get's home i just know how it's going to be! after his nap of course!!! haha!
last night i was up till about 4am cleaning mostly! yeah i was cleaning!!!

so yah i'm done writing! luv yall!!!

i'm pissed today! what a surprise??!! but no really Ray gave sarah $200.00 for christmas shopping (that she already did) and he keeps telling me he's broke! it makes me soo pissed! i have to eat dinner with him and listen to him ramble on about absoulutly nothing and i get nothing! and sarah should be MORE considerate! i've been stuck in my house for the last two weeks becausei'm so broke, and i didn't do any xmas shopping yet and I owe everybody $$ and that little bitch is shopping!!??? CUNT!!! please forgive my anger! haha NOT i'm pissed and don't really care what anyone thinks!! if you didn't want to read then you shouldn't have!!!

yeah well idk what is wrong with me! i just keep crying for NO reason! like yesterday! i asked victor a ? and because he didn't answer me right away i started crying! or we were watching this movie and he was like that's the kinda girl i'm going to marry and i started crying again! then yeah that happened like 5 times last night! i hate xmas and i hate winter and i hate everything!!!!!!!
i just want to die somtimes and it does get that bad!

well hello, yesterday we got another puppy! he's a min-pin. (just like Roxy)! too cute! sooo cute! idk really but i just wanted everyone to know about him! that's about it! jeni's over so she can see him! they get along great! except yesterday Roxy was kinda upset cause there was a new baby to play with her toys! she didn't like that that much!!! but they are so cute!!!