well i hate xmas! it's been the worst month ever! i have NO $ and Roxy is sick! Victor is outta work for the winter which is good and bad cause he's been crabby! i've been depressed! I feel bad everytime i look at Roxy, cause she looks so sad! but that'll change tomorrow cause we are getting another little puppy! a min-pin as well! a boy, so they can have cute little Roxys'
well yeah i haven't wrote in awhile! i'm also depressed! i weigh 87lbs! so everyday when i get outta the shower i weigh myself and there has been no dramatic change and i've been eating soooo much! it is making me really sad! i think i'm going to die! but i always think that! yeah well i promise i'll get this going more often so you all can hear what's been happening in my exciting life!!!

well i'm so like sorry i said i'd write all the time and i haven't in a while! sorry!
someone wrote me a message from here to ask who's victor and jeni!?? well that's retarded because duh victor is my bf for the last 2 years, and jeni well jeni's my ummm friend duh!!! obviously they haven't been reading lately!
well xmas is coming! yeehaw! i hate it! the only thing i like about xmas is decorating! i hate everything else especially snow and cold!
i really need to live like down south somewhere! right now i'm watching the simple life road trip! idk why cause it's dumb, but i like paris hilton! idk why that either!
ohh well. this kid named tom died last wednesday! i used to babysit him and i was really good friends with his sister! it really sucks!
my brother is in it! the kid got killed and my brother knows the truth but because it's his friend that did it, he won't admit the truth and he called the cops on our sister sarah cause she was telling him what she thought and because it was different than what he said he thinks she's accusing him! i don't think he did it, but i know he knows exactlly what happened , cause he was there and he's scared to tell! that's what i think, but idk so w/e!!
all i do know is if there is more to his story he better tell cause he'll be in more trouble if he doesn't!

but yeah i have to go to the bank and shit, so i can start my xmas shopping!! yeah!

well this weekend was great! except of course friday!! i got up that day at 8 my day went to hell by 9 and by 11 i was drunk left came home went to sleep left again and got drunk again!! i'm great today though! pretty soon i'm going to go get ethan from school and then go get my aunt take her home and visit with her my little cute baby cousin and my pregnant sister and her bf!! then victor should be getting home at around 3-4pm and then we'll take ethan to his mommy's and then go eat dinner or maybe i'll cook tonight??!! idk yet!

but we had our thanksgiving dinner saturday! it was a great day! the food turned out great except the casserole! the recipe that i got off the internet wasn't that great because it tasted nothing like i'm used to!! but ohh well everything else was great!!! everyone had a great time and they were all nice!! even adrian was nice to me and that's a big shoker!!! he hates me but i don't think as much as i hate him, but we actually got along great!!! it was fun the last people to leave were erika, chino and thier kids and frank and silvia with thier kids and they all left at like 2:30am and victor and I crashed on the bed!! then all day sunday i slept and he really couldn't because he had the boys all weekend! but i guess that'll be it for today!! see ya tomorrow!!

well today sucks already! it's 10am and i'm already pissed off about to leave victor! him and jenna (his ex-girlfriend) are goig to be buying ethan is b-day present together like split the cost! how fucking gay is that? why so it can say love mommy and daddy? where does that leave phil (jenna's bf) and i! that's bullshit!!! sorry if you think that i'm blowing this way out of porportion, but i've been fighting with this bitch for the last two years so i can keep my bf and this shit happens after everything is cool between all of us! yesterday i went to get thier kids victor and austin at her mom's house well victor was staying there with them since they were coming home with me anyways and he had his work vehilce. well i pull up he's rushing out of the house and her cars there! she was there for an hour and it was just them and the boys!!??? wtf is going on? idk but i just wrote her an email telling her to buy her own present for ethan and MY bf and I will buy OUR own for him!!! that after they broke up that they shouldn't be buying anymore presents together!! god this really pisses me off!!!

well today was very boring! we (jeni victor & I) all slept all day! yeah!!! not really!!
well i went shopping yesterday as planned and then when i got home i tried on all the clothes and like 3 things i liked! the rest i have to take back! i hate trying clothes on and you would think after all this time i would start but no not me! i'll just exchange them!! but at least there are some things that i liked!
well i am tired and i still want to go to bed now! maybe i'll eat somthing first!! ha lol