well here i am again today! yesterday i missed because we had a little party on thursday, and i didn't go to sleep until noon on friday and slept until 4:30am this morning! that sucked! i was like completely lost this morning! but i'm alright now!
i'm going to karaoke tonight! at uncle georges in silver lake that'll be fun!! i get to sing and make a big huge fool out of myself! yeah! no it's usually really fun! all of our family is there, and there friends! victor maybe went with me one time! he doesn't really like it there maybe because we are all white there?? lol just kidding! it's just i have a huge family and we are lots of fun but we get way loud and way drunk!! your normal italian family!!! it's great!

well today victor is coming home! he went outta town as usual! i actually wish that it would stop! he's always gone and we always fight, but i love him ssooooo much!! i will NEVER leave him not for anything, or anyone! i just want to be able to still have fun! i don't know! well i'm in the middle of cleaning this house that is NOT even my mess!! victor's fat nasty brother leaves his shit everywhere and i hate that guy!!! i wish he would move!!!! I HATE HIM!!!!

well now i'm going to be posting an online diary so everyone can read about my life!!!

well it is cold outside! victor is at work again, probably not coming home tonight, or tommorow! not til friday! he'll be 27 on the 6th of november! yeah! i look at my life and i think what is going on? i'm the person that needs to know why things happen, and when are they going to happen! i don't like being surprised! it just bothers me!
jeni has been upset with me lately because we've been spending way too much time together, and i told her that i need to start spending time with victor! i do though i'm not lying! he means a lot to me, and if things keep going the way they have been then i'm going to lose him, and I definately do NOT want that to happen. i miss us how we were before! and i want it to go that way again!!! well i think that's it for my first "diary" entry!

hello again. i wanted to write about somthing that even i can't really understand myself, and i'm hoping that maybe someone could help me out with this!!
my uncle larry just passed away on the 16th of this month, this past weekend i was at his wake, and funeral. I cried ohh my god did i cry, but now i'm pissed off!! he was 43yrs old. and he drank a lot! well the doctor told him if he didn't stop that he could die. I'm sure he thought what so many of us do; "it's not going to happen to me." well he learned that it did happen to him, and it made me think that really never say never is really true!! in the past year i've been to 4 funerals. one for drug overdose, one for failed heart, and two for heart attack. three of these were my uncles, and the drug overdose was my friend! i'm pissed off because my uncle larry had the chance to stop this, and to live to be 60 at least, but instead he kept going!! not thinking about who he's hurting! he had 29 nieces and nephews, and 8 sisters, and brothers, two kids, and a mother and father and lots of friends. everyone whom he left behind, because the bottle of alcohol was way more important obviously! if not then he would still be here, and that pisses me off!!

my Roxy, where do I begin? She's way too cute! Everything about her is cute! Except she eats shoes!! (chews on them.) my shoes! and my boyfriend would disagree, he'd say the thing about her that he doesn't like is her ears! I think they are fine the way they are, but not him!! he's so picky, and he looks at every small detail. He almost didn't let me have her because of her ears! i begged!! well it seems that whomever cut her ears, they did a really lousy job doing so! it looks like they just folded them over and cut them with a paor of scissors!! that sucks for my boyfriend, but as for me i think that they are fine just the way they are!!! but he's seriously going to die about this!! well he left me $ to make an appointment to get them redone, but i haven't called yet, and I think that it's too late already. she's three almost 4 months old!! but what do i know??? maybe someone else does, so if you do can you please tell me what to do???